Today on the day when i exactly believes in the end of the love. I finally have to judge myself. I have to stop the very beating of my heart. I had promised him. A promise which no one can believe that this is real and sensible. None of the living being can understand how i could make this strong devotion. Even many had told me, it was wrong. No wonder, even I had told me that it might be wrong. Then, Now, On, I beleive in myself this promise has never been killed. I never had any weapon to use, never ever. Stupidly I just knew it recently, that I could never find a good one to kill this, Promise. It's been a year passed. I never thought i could come back to reality. I always thought it was im possible to see him again directly infront of me. It was my choice or just my imagination which led me this way. It had to be the best year of my life. When we both pronounced that we will really be together forever. "forever boyfriend" . It was me We believed to let ourselves be full of happiness. We were deceiving people. Yes, we might have. "forever this heart is yours, and your home". The last sentence which remained in my lips in my last step which he could reach by eyes. Those feeling warmed my heart, melted the candle of tears in my eyes. last smile which blossomed out of the tears. I believed, he believed, they believed.
As I sat on that favourite window seat. I regreted too much that I never let him leave me. I just wanted to feel what he was feeling on his part. Tears were flowing down my face. I kept the promise of no mentioning any part of our happiness in my mouth, never ever. Days had gone by. Me, my life, and him. I still felt nothing no strength in me. He tried his best to wish me getting my happiness back. He, who I never thought would think of me in this side. He was so patient. Sitting beside, no word came out from his beautiful mouth. I never love this way of him. I used to be so fussy at seeing his silence upon my fussy way of life. I used to complain about him this way.But now, he had to be happy, I'm in his way, looking so. He who had brought me this way far, and close. I used to feel I was alone carrying a big bag of love which i never thought he had the same feeling towards me. I always thought i was the one who was in love. I dint feel a return but I accepted all.
"I need a refresh"
how my mouth said that to him. I never expected anything good or bad from this sentence. I said this sentence deliberately, moody face, fake smiles flowering my days. I was not broken hearted nor even disappointed by him the one who was infront of me. I just got a hollow in my heart. a part which was always full of the moment of truth, which always led the new happiness come in. I was so busy, recallling those dreams which i eve awore only would remain as a dream. I couldn't see the reality upon my life now. How, I felt the hollow without sadness, like this emptiness stopped on its way. My brain couldn't stop trying recalling Him, the one who was no more infront of me. The owner of all the beauty of the blue sky. I loved. Stoped. Full stop. So, What remain is an emptiness which no one could ever replace.
"Just go and come back soon", He was sounding patient, I did not care about his feeling, even, I understood how he understood me on his beloved way. He knew how my heart was so empty. Ho loved. Me. I belived. Though I ever wished for him to find th truth of his life and by mistake suddenly left me for another better condition, I ever swore that I would never blame him. Still. the one who was still infront of me. Spelling the best wishing for me for getting a refreshment. I am lost. I out of his love, I believed. My life, I never wished to be so empty even I ever thought it would be so.
A chance let me stay in a dark corner of my room. Sitting there with an empty notebook. I wanted to fill it full with all the stories about him, the one who was then much too far away from my reach. Dreams. Mom, was busy packing my needs for my refreshment. The party was coming in the next moth. heart needed me to contemplate. I needed to forget al te way things that I ever swore I never was be aable once to forget. I loved. My mouth could only spell this much. a sentence which I , me, No one could be able to finish with an important object. Tears, were flowing. I could only pray that this heart will believe in me.
Life would never be fair enough towards the one who was infront me. Though I am tryingtosetle things upon my rigt and my righteous wayof living, I stillcouldn't understand the wayhe was looking more innocent then just a stupid sparrow. So what about me even in this minute I couldnt recall the way i sincerely loving his guy in my past which was passed. Love, now and then. I could not understand still why i lost this all after such a good way i put a pause oo to his life about me, stili couldnt find the best way of him wanting me. Did he ever try toforget the way i was forcing himto be mine though i knew it was tohard for him to understandmy way. Oh life!!! why evrythinng was gettingharder. I ever thought loe would always be easytokill, to pause and to restart.Now I had lost myself. Alas.
A nice since passed my mind. A nigth when we didint have anywhere to sit, to just enjoy a bitter tea. He was facing me. I was then laughing at an extrardinary scene of my life. " you are the one who I ever let see me in this skirt"
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
A little story abou t Jasmine and Wine
It was a very hard day for Wine to live. Jasmine dint want to let him come to see her on her special day. Even Jasmine dint let him wish her a nice day face to face. Jasmine just wanted to celebrate that day silent ly. By seeing thousand ideas in his mind, Wine suddenly came on her window and and just saw her lyin on her bed.
Jasmine was in a very sad face and looked very pale. JAsmine dint even talk when she saw her " half " appeared infront of her. Jasmine was not sure how to be facing this. Jasmine dint talk and wine couldnt move a muscle.
Wine turned his happiness into a gloom. After awhile he pushed himself in. And took her away from her bed. Wine just wanted her to be under the best moonlight night. He was so surprised and shocke when Jasmine dint even have a great strenght to carry her soul.
Her pale temple adn lips let Wine know that her weakness was his strenght from then on. And her happiness was only his spirit. She smiled once at him, only in a glance. Her eyes winked and dint seem to let her lover's hapiness flew away.
He held her hand softly to walk beside him. he dint feel alone. He couldnt be so far from the bliss by that only. "My Heart-beats....Thanks for being beautiful". Knowing that she was in her worst shape, Jasmine stopped walking and covered her pale looking face with her beautiful hair.
Wine just looked at her and gave her a strength to move on. He held her shoulder now. Like there is nothing more perfect than this. They were walking under the moonlight and when the light fell upon her face. He saw an angel.
Jasmine tried to hide her pale face and stopped walking to say, "sorry for being unhealthy". Wine saw a little snow covering her face, cold and stable. he wouldnt let her away from his perfect happiness. His heart was almost covered by the coldest Icy mountain.
But he swore he wouldnt let it stop what was going beautiful in his heart.
He pulled her into his hug like he never cared before, like he almost lost the time being
He kissed her lips, " Dont let me die in this happiness without you, I just want to be by your side to be the one who will catch your tears, This heart needs you to live in, let me kiss this pain away and just be ok"
Jasmine stayed there, like there was no other place suited her body, they fell on the knees and one little hope bursted from Wine's mouth "let me be inside your heart awhile"
Tears ran down on Wine's Cheecks...
The End
Finurm, Hyderabad, July 23rd 2010
12.06 am
Jasmine was in a very sad face and looked very pale. JAsmine dint even talk when she saw her " half " appeared infront of her. Jasmine was not sure how to be facing this. Jasmine dint talk and wine couldnt move a muscle.
Wine turned his happiness into a gloom. After awhile he pushed himself in. And took her away from her bed. Wine just wanted her to be under the best moonlight night. He was so surprised and shocke when Jasmine dint even have a great strenght to carry her soul.
Her pale temple adn lips let Wine know that her weakness was his strenght from then on. And her happiness was only his spirit. She smiled once at him, only in a glance. Her eyes winked and dint seem to let her lover's hapiness flew away.
He held her hand softly to walk beside him. he dint feel alone. He couldnt be so far from the bliss by that only. "My Heart-beats....Thanks for being beautiful". Knowing that she was in her worst shape, Jasmine stopped walking and covered her pale looking face with her beautiful hair.
Wine just looked at her and gave her a strength to move on. He held her shoulder now. Like there is nothing more perfect than this. They were walking under the moonlight and when the light fell upon her face. He saw an angel.
Jasmine tried to hide her pale face and stopped walking to say, "sorry for being unhealthy". Wine saw a little snow covering her face, cold and stable. he wouldnt let her away from his perfect happiness. His heart was almost covered by the coldest Icy mountain.
But he swore he wouldnt let it stop what was going beautiful in his heart.
He pulled her into his hug like he never cared before, like he almost lost the time being
He kissed her lips, " Dont let me die in this happiness without you, I just want to be by your side to be the one who will catch your tears, This heart needs you to live in, let me kiss this pain away and just be ok"
Jasmine stayed there, like there was no other place suited her body, they fell on the knees and one little hope bursted from Wine's mouth "let me be inside your heart awhile"
Tears ran down on Wine's Cheecks...
The End
Finurm, Hyderabad, July 23rd 2010
12.06 am
The White Wine and Ice
This heroine has made her understand how love shall appear in this world. How he can become a very nice and silent pain killer for her who is fallen under the name of The Black Jasmine. The White wine seems so prosperous and settled in mind and understanding others' condition.This Wine appears to be happy and make people happy. This wine has come up with a conclusion in facing his life. More than just words he has peoved all the reasons and ways he's passed. This wine again, has destroyed the thing called heart- broken and sorrow in the jasmine's life.Jasmine is Jasmine, Very captivating with a very strong smell and taugh twig. Nobody can even notice what in her mind is. She can easily turns her frown into a smile, and turns the laugh into a gloomy cloudy day. Who knows, what she's hiding???..an abstract and abnormal view of life.She tries harder and much harder to control her feeling and motion, but again, she can never be a vampire. The wine always there, beside her, listening to her voice in his dream, even looks at her in a very chaotic dream. Wine, has a broad way of making his shoulder taugh for her.
The strong taste of wine can never let himself fall into misery of seeing tears flowing down Jasmine's cheeks. This time, Jasmine just tries to control her cry and sweeps away the stream on her face. Wine is there looking seriously to her mind, but still he cant read anything.He folds jasmine in his taugh heart, heartless, motionless, Navigates an easy thought for her.
Jasmine is stil there in the hug but the she cries a lot, for she can never grants all the wine's wishes. Whaterver wine tries to ease her, she can only cry. Jasmine wants wine to know that her cry is all becos, she feels so sorry. She is thinking of letting the wine go forever, Than she has to see the wine heart is Hurt. Whenever the cry starts, Jasmine just wants him to understand, The the wall that they have built together, is made of stone, but easy still to break.
The wine hold her tight in his hug, But tears still flow, Jasmine is hurting herself, seeing the nothingness in their future.
The wine, sweeps the tears away for the first time ever. "What kind of heart You have???" why easy to be sad???and cry, Stop it! stop It! Stop it!!!
It's not becos she wants to cry, but It's hard to stop...
Jasmine never wants to cry, even she swears she hopes to be a very cruel human being who has no tears for sadness. The wine steps away from her and says,"ok cry cry, cry as much as you want......fast faster!!! aloud..." Jasmine tries to stop but she can never hide her sadness. she is motionless now.
The wine comes over closer to her and hold her. he wisphers, "dont cry please Im sorry, Im telling you, my heart is ok!!!" Jasmine doesnt move a muscle, she wants nothing, she just keeps silent. The wine wants to hold her back in his heart. He is silent awhile and says,"kiss me"
jasmine wants nothing,
"kiss me please"
Jasmine still can listen
"kiss me....please kiss me...kiss me like before, show me that you are ok with me"
Jasmine stares at a pointless view.
The wine, then showers her with kisses, a lot of hugs, but jasmine doesnt reply,
jasmine dies in her dream jasmine, stop breathing, jasmine....is hurt,
And ...
Click!!!
she decides to move forward and tries to ferget any bad thing...
Love' trouble you sometimes....
understanding eachother
be strong if you want
or just enjoy the pain...
The strong taste of wine can never let himself fall into misery of seeing tears flowing down Jasmine's cheeks. This time, Jasmine just tries to control her cry and sweeps away the stream on her face. Wine is there looking seriously to her mind, but still he cant read anything.He folds jasmine in his taugh heart, heartless, motionless, Navigates an easy thought for her.
Jasmine is stil there in the hug but the she cries a lot, for she can never grants all the wine's wishes. Whaterver wine tries to ease her, she can only cry. Jasmine wants wine to know that her cry is all becos, she feels so sorry. She is thinking of letting the wine go forever, Than she has to see the wine heart is Hurt. Whenever the cry starts, Jasmine just wants him to understand, The the wall that they have built together, is made of stone, but easy still to break.
The wine hold her tight in his hug, But tears still flow, Jasmine is hurting herself, seeing the nothingness in their future.
The wine, sweeps the tears away for the first time ever. "What kind of heart You have???" why easy to be sad???and cry, Stop it! stop It! Stop it!!!
It's not becos she wants to cry, but It's hard to stop...
Jasmine never wants to cry, even she swears she hopes to be a very cruel human being who has no tears for sadness. The wine steps away from her and says,"ok cry cry, cry as much as you want......fast faster!!! aloud..." Jasmine tries to stop but she can never hide her sadness. she is motionless now.
The wine comes over closer to her and hold her. he wisphers, "dont cry please Im sorry, Im telling you, my heart is ok!!!" Jasmine doesnt move a muscle, she wants nothing, she just keeps silent. The wine wants to hold her back in his heart. He is silent awhile and says,"kiss me"
jasmine wants nothing,
"kiss me please"
Jasmine still can listen
"kiss me....please kiss me...kiss me like before, show me that you are ok with me"
Jasmine stares at a pointless view.
The wine, then showers her with kisses, a lot of hugs, but jasmine doesnt reply,
jasmine dies in her dream jasmine, stop breathing, jasmine....is hurt,
And ...
Click!!!
she decides to move forward and tries to ferget any bad thing...
Love' trouble you sometimes....
understanding eachother
be strong if you want
or just enjoy the pain...
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